are your eyes bleeding yet??

heartlessscum @ 2007-02-28T02:19:00

2007-02-28T06:19:32Z

wow live journal you have changed so much
i hardly even recognize you
in fact i dont at all
and i dont even know whats going on with you right now
so fuckin suck me ya fuck
almost 8 months since i have stayed out of jail
longest i have done that since 04
im sure by now everyone thinks i just fell of the map
and i wouldnt say that isnt true
but sometimes some people go to hell n back to get right
its unfortunate im one of them
but im makin my come back
starting a band called The Johnson Boys
since band members besides me n my brother seem to confuse the writing process we've decided to write all the music and worry about band memebers later when they are truly needed(on stage) everything is working out so fine and also i havent touched any drugs in almost 9 months and thats been pretty huge life is crazy but im glad i got one...i lost all my "friends" basically theres only a couple left so i wanna make time to get my friends back some of em anyway ya know what fuck this im gonna go call some fuckers up right now

life is the worst game i have ever played

2006-05-19T02:13:33Z

since last entry i have been doing nothing but playing my guitar n stayin drunk n high
*off god* like the not so great james brown once said but thats all an excuse we need recruit a second guitarist and its pretty cool i must say our music is pretty simple and i wouldn't have it any other way with this second guitarist it makes me feel like i can spread my wings or better yet grow my horns and let my tail hang out as a demon or a guitarist whatever i was talkin about
got court wednesday so wish me luck
and for those who wish bad luck upon me just know this ya cant cheat karma
and i damn you aswell as god
EVERYBODY COME SEE THE SLUGS NEXT MONTH!
yeah we're gonna start playin some shows finally
gotta little bit o new material so hopefully we aint rushin this shit
got nothin else to say

feelin like a turd

2006-05-03T04:33:47Z

me and the girlfriend broke up
as bad as i feel
i think it was the right decision
being her boyfriend was only hindering our friendship which i cherish
love you christin

tomorrow we're checkin out a second guitarist
so that'll be fun

i have nothing to say

drink until we're losing it

2006-04-21T21:20:39Z

I got a few bucks and nothing to do
Let's spend some quality time, just me and you
I don't give a shit how I feel tomorrow
I wanna do it right now cause all my time is borrowed
Let's get drunk
Let's get drunk right now
Let's get drunk till we're falling down
And barfin' all over the ground
i dress bad and act worse
if there was an asshole olympics i would come in first
i hate this place it's run by fuckin' dinks
shut your fuckin face and gimme my fuckin drinks
drink beer smoke pot play music
you know i gotta lot of what keeps me happy and gets me high
don't try to bring me down you know i'll never die

so fuck livejournal
i never got nothin to say
quintons the only fucker that says anything interesting
i feel like a queer doug funny
with this gay ass diary

Dear Diary,
I fucked Patti Mayonaise,and got really high. She told me that she loved me, and i told her " get the fuck out". She thought by belt and underwear looked familiar. i think she knows i'm quail man so i am going to kill her, and suck skeeter off.

i applied at some places
how weird would it be to walk into your local mattress store
only to find me doing absolutley nothing
and getting paid for it
yes but time has come
and i should work
and move in with my friends
i kinda think i should move into the city
but there are some sweet places around here
might move to this place in canton
i dunno we'll see what happens

ok screw this
this is lame

ey baby i seen ya checkin out muh goods
wanna little try before ya buy eh??
come here bitch!
stand and deliver!

success!

2006-03-08T03:17:27Z

here comes success
over my hill
here comes my car
here comes my chinese rug
im gonna hop like a frog
oh shit!
i really hate getting locked up for no reason
only becuz of my previous record
so i gotta nother court date
wish me luck cuz i got none left
and hopefully i'll get throo this without doing any time
this worlds a fucked up place
but sometimes i cant help but think
that its just me
and that im the fucked up one
i try doesnt that count for something?
i hold the devil in me very well i think
the evil in me is rarely shown
im really trying to do good things
but when nothing comes out of it
it really gets me down
its really flattering that this anonymous person misses me
but what is it that just cant be?? and why cant i know who you are??
my girl has been my girl for a month now
so we celebrated hard as fuck the other night
i been trying to skateboard more lately
i love it, it is so much fun

Grab your skateboard, leave your troubles behind.
We're gonna hit the streets there's lots of fun to find
Hit a pebble or a crack fall down on your face,
Gonna find a curb and grind all over the place.

Bomb the hill
leave your troubles at the top

It doesn't even matter how good or bad you skate.
Put your ego in the trash on the way
We're out for fun, don't need bad vibes today.
Everybody scream real loud, the secret word is SKATE.

SKATE

best day ever

2006-02-10T19:32:19Z

yesterday.....
started off with some chillin
with the boys and eric
we rocked pretty hard n smoked
then my girl shows up
we go back to her place
and the rest is better left unsaid
but i will say this
BEST NIGHT EVER!

baby doll

2006-02-03T19:30:25Z

gotta new girl
she is real cool
gotta gotta gotta girlfriend
yeah im pretty damn siked about this
im bout as happy as it gets
we're gonna have some fun!
march is finally on its way
this means i'm getting a job
save a few bills
and im moving straight to slug street with the boys
where we will party and rock so fuckin hard every day
im doing great
in response
great things are happening

pretty please me

2006-01-31T21:34:52Z

this game of everyone let's hate jordan is no fun for me anymore

heartlessscum @ 2006-01-22T09:11:00

2006-01-22T14:13:02Z

i am now known as J.SlugWorth
i am not saying anything else
becuz i should not be alive right now

call me ghandi thats my name

2006-01-20T07:52:41Z

yes it's true
ima fuckin buddhist nigger
i heard it just today
and i wanna say motha fuck friends!
people are just too quick to claim friendship
what the fuck is this friendship bullshit?
i believe in droogies
brothers and sisters
not always blood but someone you can trust
and maybe i have trust issues
but if you're my "friend"
prove it!
becuz seeing is believing
there are people in this world that'll start up the pipe
and then there are people like me who come along and finish up that pipe
why dont you just go on back to yer momma
and if i've pissed you off that's just
TOUGH FUCKIN SHIT!

this girl's like stew
the less i know about what's in it
the more i like it

becuz nobody gives a dam what i have to say

2006-01-18T01:12:00Z

Chicken legs and scrambled eggs
Potato chips in onion dip
Are things I eat for breakfast everyday
Honey ham and soggy spam
Jimmy dean with refried beans
Help me to get started on my way

Roasted goose in pickle juice
Hamburger in vinegar
Are things I like to eat during lunch
Jellyfish with bacon bits
Pork and beans with shaving cream
Are things you know I really like to munch

Onion rings and burger king
Winter coats and bars of soap
Lava lamps and postage stamps
Broken jars and foreign cars
Carpet hair and tupperware
Saxophones and cobblestones
Electric eels and stainless steel

Banana splits with southern grits
Throat lozenges with sausages
Are supper meals that really taste yummy
Chocolate malts with cubes of salt and
Crepe suzette made from insects
Are things I like to put in my tummy

Boys and girls, you better be cautious
Cause you know I'm feeling real nautious
And you know my face is turning green

heartlessscum @ 2006-01-16T20:15:00

2006-01-17T01:15:42Z

Dude, so veronica is pretty much my best friend. she rules.

you're just a mirage

2006-01-15T23:57:14Z

life rules
havin fun
partyin hard
the other night
drank a bottle
had myself some smoke
trey jumped out the second story window
n somehow managed to break the first floor window
landed in a bush
hit the bush runnin
then tried to fist fight eric voss
too bad it didnt go down
i was pretty siked about it
eatin up this caaaandy
feelin real fuckin good
puking
but a good puke
where's my money
what??
need more time??
GAT GAT GATCHA!!

dont ever come down

2006-01-06T06:15:24Z

I don't wanna hear your shit, don't wanna see your face
Cause when it comes to drinking beer, don't you get on my case
Heineken is skunk piss dude, and Miller sucks so bad
I'm Johnny V, I've tried em all, I've spilled more than you had
Hey you motherfuckers
I only drink Bud
Ben Weasel don't know a thing, Rancid don't even drink
Even little Vapid's on the wagon, don't it stink?
People in Chicago always brag about Old Style
Before I drink that swill again, it's gonna be a while
BUUUUDDWEIIIIISERRRRR
shits all the same
stayin outta trouble
hangin out with people
rockin with the boys in the band
cant wait for band practice tomorrow
should have some shows pretty soon
its rock n roll at 2006
rockin it at the apacolypse
yall take it sleazy

well fuck

2005-12-22T01:21:48Z

so i guess im single again
what the fuck
aint that some bullshit
i just hope we can still hang out
so im open for business now
MERRY CHRISTMAS BITCHs
i feel like there is alot of hangin out to be done
you mother fuckers got my number
wake me up when christmas is over

i knew all about your plans i really did understand but you didn't let me know i wasn't invited to go christmas vacation you took a vacation from me

no time for 29 a day, when i get to beer 30 i'll be on my way

2005-12-11T20:28:39Z

shits cool
the band rules
writin n recordin
all the time

wanna fuck ya to death
dont wanna smell yer breath
piss on your warm embrace
just wanna cum on yer face

Yeah, my eyes are red, my dad ain't rich, my mom, well she's a first class bitch, I got a shitty job, I live in fear, just wanna play my guitar and drink some beer, I just wanna drink some beer, well booze is cool but pot's a crime whos bright idea was that and I just wanna write songs that's weird, snap the bong, drink some beer, I just wanna drink some beer, come to the Chase Club, to the point now blow me while I roll a joint, front to back, in your ear, you can kiss my ass while I drink some beer, I just wanna drink some beer!

need some friends
i feel like i lost em all
girls
guitars
booze
n buds
swhat its alllll about

ima pervert!

2005-12-02T04:22:36Z

things are good
the band is kickin ass
tucker is playing bass for us
we have practiced twice and we already sound like we should be playin shows
the band is also now called one ounce slugs
cuz when we come on stage you're gonna feel like you got shot with one
we'll be playin real soon
i smell....
of sex

ima pervert!

53rd & 3rd

2005-11-15T05:55:18Z

there aren't enough cigarettes in this world to keep me happy

ima liar

2005-11-11T02:11:28Z

had to go and getta drug and alcohol evaluation today
i answered all of there questions
and lied alot
and they said i need no treatment
i told you guys i was drug free now
even the professionals know it
im so happy
things are actually going my way for a change
musics going good
me n trey been playing with quinton cj and sky
workin on some cool shit
all i need is to make some good friends
cuz i got ZERO
im always by myself
while everybodys all clicked up partyin and what not
so thats all i really need to work on
maybe im just not friendly
i just hang out with girls all the time

Theres not a word of truth in anything that I say
I don't really want to listen till they go away
I haven't finished and I never cry
If you ask for reasons, I just lie

I'm a liar, liar, I never tell the truth

I tell you how to feel and why it is
And when and or if you don't want to give
I love spending hours watching television
I saw a dance, lights, room and a fall and your bright red politician

I smoked your last cigarette I say that someone else did
I send your mum to the vet and find out your sisters brilliant
You ask me why, I just lie

I'm a liar, liar

I'm gonna be the biggest liar in the world
I'll be so good you'll believe every word
I could even make you believe Adolf Hitler
Send him to Azurre for the winter

i am seeing UFOs

2005-10-31T19:40:15Z

ok last night was the craziest fuckin shit EVER!!
lemme explain
last night me and jen are hanging out we had nothin to do
we had already been to taco bell and besides taco bell there aint nothin to do in this town
so we decide to go to my neb park and shoot some hoops
she beat me in horse but she cheated so i didnt cry
so then we sit at the picnic table and start talking and looking at the stars
when all the sudden i glance to my right and in the sky there is a light shooting down and out of sight at first i thought wow i just saw a shooting star but then i notice there aint no stars in that part of the sky because of all the street lights near by i guess and so i figured it must have been close and then im thinking UFO!
so we start talking again and then i glance to the same spot in the sky and there it is AGAIN same spot same thing all over again so then i start saying dude and fuck alot cuz by this point im thinking yeah i am seeing UFOs no fucking joke and im tempted to leave cuz i was feeling a little weird about it
but we just start talking more and not long after we see a waaaaay bigger ball of light to our left bright as can be and shooting down throo the trees and out of sight i got fucking freaked out and said alright thats it we're getting the fuck out of here it was seriously a UFO what else could it be??? and jen was just talking about how she has seen some before back in ohio so im thinking they are after her for some reason
but im going back to the park tonight to see if i cant encounter maybe some aliens or see more UFOs
you guys lemme know what you think
theres noway im just crazy cuz we both seen the shit!
i am totally seeing UFOs

heartlessscum @ 2005-10-25T18:07:00

2005-10-25T22:25:34Z

recording recording recording
noise noise noise
thats all thats been going on lately
need some friends
i only got one and she treats me like a stranger
im tired of having nothing to do
im tired of having nobody around
im tired of myself
everything is ok
im doing good at staying drug free
although this not smoking pot thing is kickin my ass
i'll be alright
im ready to move out
get a place with trey and maybe someone else if we can find some friends
i wanna getta job at subway
seems like a cool job
making submarine sandwichs all day
mmmm i love submarine sandwichs
plus getting money is pretty cool
i wanna go somewhere haunted
i wanna be a ghost hunter
i have seen one ghost in my life
and it was the most fascinating thing thats happened to me
i wanna encounter more of the supernatural

quote of the week:
"rock and roll has no future it is only recycled past"
-mick jagger

If there is a tear on my face
It makes me shiver to the bone
It shakes me, Babe
It's just a heartache that got caught in my eye
And you know I'll never cry
Sometimes I drink more than I need
Until the TV's dead and gone
I may be lonely
But I'm never alone
And the night may pass me by
But I'll never cry
Take away, take away my eyes
Sometimes I'd rather be blind
Break a heart, break a heart of stone
Open it up but don't you leave it alone
'Cuz that's all I got to give to you
Believe me Babe, it ain't been used
My heart's a virgin, it aint never been tried
And you know I'll never cry
Break a heart, break a heart of stone
Open it up but don't you leave it alone
'Cuz that's all I got to give to you
Believe me Babe, it ain't been used
My heart's a virgin, it aint never been tried
And you know I'll never cry

GCF

2005-10-19T21:55:13Z

ok
i quit doing drugs
i have stopped smoking pot
and i wont smoke again until the time is right
right now i just can't be smoking
and im doing a good job of keeping my drinking under control
i still get drunk as fuck from time to time but im more chill and self controlled
who believes me???
and i figure fuck!
even tho i dont agree with society and there stupid rules
that i have gotta put up with there stupid rules and stay out of their way
i know you're all thinking what the fuck this aint no johnny virus
well fuck you for feeling that way
forgive me for not wanting to spend my days in the motha fuckin pen
i have been locked up 3 times in the passed 2 years
i got 8 felonies and 3 misdemeanors on my record
not that i give a fuck about my record but still that just shows i been doing somethin wrong
so i figure i have got to make a change or two in order to stay out of prison
its pretty fuckin hard to rock this hard from behind bars ya know??
theres just noway im giving up my rock and roll dream over some stupid fucking drugs
fuck that
so im putting girls girls and more girls in place of the drugs drugs and more drugs
instead of scoring drugs
i'll just be scoring period
and if anybodys got something to say about it then we'll take care of that fuckin mouth of yours

DESCENDENTS

all i want is some good clean fun
yeah all i want is some good clean fun
you can freak out, you can shoot up you can fall down, you can self-destruct just leave me alone
work hard, play hard, work up a sweat stay out of trouble, if you're able don't spoil my day
so don't misunderstand what i say
it's hard to say no and not o.k.
take the drugs out of sex and drugs and rock and roll
all i want is some good clean fun
yeah all i want is some good clean fun
you can freebase, fall on your face, waste what you got don't corrupt my life just leave me alone
drown it in alcohol, i don't care at all i like lust and sexual thrust i like good clean fun

lemme get a hell yeah from the GCF crew

everything rules!

2005-10-17T00:27:43Z

well today i recorded some more noise
recorded the newest nikki (or whatever we're called) song
its a great fuckin song
check it out on the myspace
the bass is a bit loud but you get the god damn point
it still rocks
lemme know what you guys think mk?
now im blowing b'loonies and trying to light them on fire
listening to television on repeat
im such a loser
gotta go be sober some more
sobriety
gotta love this shit
who loves me??

today

2005-10-12T03:13:16Z

today...hmmm
nothin special really
same ol' day
veronica and jana came over
so that was pretty cool
jana's good about getting me to laugh, and eating my food
its a good day when shes around
and veronica too
me and her are totally goin to the next american idol
mark my words
i will be on tv singing acdc
i am the next american idol!
uhh dont know what to say
gonna start recording some old and new shit
so that'll be fun
need a new skateboard deck
wanna start skating more
dont got nothin else to say
what a wonderful world

prison is no fun

2005-10-09T19:25:22Z

they let me out friday
i feel like a million dollars
i did alot of thinking
i have changed in many ways
and in other ways im still the same
for the passed 5 months i have done nothin but waste time in a place called scott state prison
i seen some crazy shit happen
to tell you all how it was
early mornings try 430
and you wake up to correctional officers screaming at you and it never stops
exercise.
fighting everyday
fighting for absolutely nothing but your respect
people losing teeth, and getting stitches for some respect
i'll tell ya i seen some crazy ass shit
one of my partners im gonna fuck with when he gets out got cut wide open
on his forearm about 6 inches long,the shit was like 3 inches wide open, and all the way to the bone
cut the muscle in half they sewed the muscle back then sewed the skin back together it took like 8 hours sergary. that was the craziest shit i ever saw while i was there.
i gotta detail meaning i just cut grass all day from monday throo thursday
we got fed like shit
they fed us shit that i couldn't even eat half the time
and on the weekends we only got fed twice NO LUNCH
BUT i made it out alive and in one piece
thats what counts
what dont kill you
makes you better right?
it feels so weird to be out in the world
everything has changed so much
the world is going to hell more and more each day it seems
everyone i knew, i dont know anymore
but let me tell you i feel like a million dollars
in other news the treatments are playng tonight at swayzes so i gotta be there
other than that i have no plans except for rockin hard and chillin out
so if anyone wants to hang out lets do it before i get all booked up
damn.
its good to be back